This is how I will remember you. The loving lady that jumped at the chance to be a part of our life. The Grandmother that everyone wants to have and wishes to be one day. You know the one the makes you smile just seeing her. The one that brings baked goods and money for new shoes every time she would visit your house. This is that Grandma for me. The special one that I chose to follow around as a little girl. I would pepper her with questions:
Grandma, will you take me to visit your classroom? Can I be a teacher one day?
Will you cut me some fresh strawberries and sprinkle powdered sugar on top? (the answer was always yes!)
Will you play with me in the basement, let’s play school!?
Can you show me how you make mashed potatoes?
Will you teach me to play cards?
Can we dig in the garden?
yes, yes, yes…Let me love on you, spend time with you, guide you, that was always her answer, yes.
In my mind’s eye I could be right back at her house. Snuggled up in the antique beds, with the crisp white blankets. I am running through the the acres of grass, down the hills and over to the swing set. I am lounging in the family room watching hours of Anne of Green Gables. I am gathered for yet another amazing family meal, eating fresh vegetables from her garden and helping her set the fine china. Christmases, birthdays, Easters, holidays, they are all a blur between our home and Grandma’s house. Summers were always spent with Grandma. For week long stays, or even entire summers when we were moving (which happened often!). We would just camp out for the summer at Grandma’s house until the move was complete or the new house was finished. The door was always open for us.
She was never more proud of her two girls. Lindsay and I. We were the most special people to her and she made sure we knew it every time we were around her.
She is 91 and went under hospice care today. I have been with her and have held her hand. I am torn between the want to be with her every day and the daily needs of my three little ones. I know she understands that I have three little gems that need their mommy, but I want to be with her. Tomorrow I will get some time with her and this weekend.
She always made sure I knew how loved I was. I am just hoping she knows how special she is to me. I hope I told her that. I followed in your footsteps Grandma. You helped to form the woman, mom, and person I am today. I love you.